Soulphia leaves on Monday to go and help other people in other places and I can already feel my heart breaking. They’ve been here for two weeks and have been amazing every single day. Bringing their light and love and their beauty.
I know it’s selfish of me to not want them to leave, I feel like it’s to soon. Next Friday my boys would have been a month old and I know I am going to be a mess. I love each and every one of those souls on that bus. They have no idea how much they have helped me and I don’t know how I can ever repay them for their kindness and love and beauty.
Between the individual talks and the group talks and the hugs and the love they have brought a lot of inner peace in my tormented soul. I can’t imagine them not being only a short ride away from me. I know it sounds ridiculous but I owe me being here to them, a huge part of me wanted to not be here and with the healing they have brought helped me through that.
I know they have no idea how much they have done for me. I have been told multiple times they wish they could do more to help with my pain. But to be honest, there’s nothing more that could be done. They’ve listened to me, held me while I cried, loved me.
I can not describe how much love I love you all and how much I will miss you. I know I will meet up with you in a little bit. But, you leaving is so heart wrenching. No words can describe how much you’ve done for me. For my heart. For my soul.