It’s been 8 months since I had you beautiful boys. I can’t even describe how much I miss you. How much I love you. How many nights I dream about you.
8 months
34 weeks
243 days
5832 hours
349920 minutes
All of that adds up to a lifetime for me. I’ve been raising money for other parents who have been dealing with the same pain as me, to help with funeral costs. It’s been helping a little to fill the void but it’s still a hole that can’t be filled.
I go to birthday parties for the family now, even though being around little kids hurts. The kids cousin turned three the other day and it took everything in me to smile and not cry being around his younger brother. I don’t go to my dads events because that’s hard. I see babies and I want to just go home.
It’s hard going places that little ones will be. My heart hurts…. my arms ache to hold you boys….. I can’t even imagine the things you two would be doing right now if you where here!
Your siblings miss you, Telesforo talks about you, Taylinn kisses my necklace with you in it. All I’m saying is if I was a few minutes earlier to the hospital, maybe this wouldn’t have happened.
windandthewolf 