So, I’ve been in remission for months and you’d think that would be great but not really. I ended up miscarrying the boys at 21 weeks i had another placenta abruption and it broke my heart. and that sent me over the edge for a huge depression. I laid in bed and Andrue had to take care of me. He took off a week and took care of everything. Don’t know what I’d do without that man.
My body has been slowly healing but mentally it’s been hard. I feel like I’m not good enough. Miscarrying a set of twins and having a set stillborn makes you think about it. I was told the radiation was a factor with the high bp but it still hurts.
I want to curl up in a ball still. But, I’ve met a group of angel moms and they have been a huge help. We talk all the time and I’ve been meeting up and planning on meeting with others.
It’s very therapeutic, and helps with how I feel. They know how I feel , though no one should understand this feeling. It’s nice to talk to people to do.
My psych helps but when we move to ka I’ll have to find a new one… I love Angie and I’m really not excited about it.
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